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Just when I thought I was getting better, when i thought i was finally getting passed all my problems, my sadness and my depression, I began to fall again. I used to be fragile but i have been broken for a while.Nobody can catch me or break my fall. They can only try to help me pick up the pieces once i have completely shattered on the ground. I hate i cant get over people who hurt me the most. I would like to believe that i overcame everything it on my own this year that what happened on me.But the truth is, I needed people.I needed somebody to do what I thought to be impossible. I needed somebody to save me out from the sadness. I needed somebody to kiss me those scars, instead of tell me to get over it and stop being "emo". I'm really needed love. (i'm like somehow asking people to love me.LOL-.-) and thought i hated it, i needed other people. 5 months so far and right now.I can say i'm okay without you, i'm alive, i'm breathing. I'm living i'm healing. but when people ask me about you my heart still pain.because i can't forget how i be treated by you.i didn't love you much or maybe it's just a small crash but everyone person once they came into my life i will never let them out from my heart. or maybe i'm too easy to get so i'm too easy to forget (?) i hate i'm being a bitch now. i forget you little by little, step by step.but when people talk abt you everything flow back into my mind again.i want to have a better life than you. it's pain see you're fine without me.because i know i mean nth to you.you can go around with all the girls hang out with them hug them kiss them.yeap, me too.because we doesn't mean for each other anymore. and we'd ady over like 12345678 months ago. and maybe you would think i'm funny holding on till so long, i just don't want to forget how you HURT me.i would like to thanks you for giving those happy,sweet,funny,sad memories. i  always smile to myself when the words/phrase you always said to me last time pass across my mind. you make me grow up, make me stand up from the pain.but most of all, i have slowly began to love myself even more again.this is the lesson that i'd learnt this year.